Sometimes you’re flush and sometimes you’re bust, and when you’re up, it’s never as good as it seems, and when you’re down, you never think you’ll be up again. – Fred Jung, Blow

I realized that the times of greatest inspiration come only at times when I am greatly, greatly inspired or when I am greatly depressed. I decided also, that if there are days I do not have much to say I will pick up one of my favorite quotes and write why it is important to me and explain it somehow.

This one inspired me long time ago, when I was around 15 years old. My only inspiration was Johnny Depp and his difficult childhood and quotes that related to me, most of all unique films like Blow, What’s Eating Gilbert Grape, Dead Men etc. that were full of inspiring quotes.

The story of Blow comes to me many times since it is one of my most favorite movies and when I was 14 or 15 and saw it for the first time I decided to smuggle drugs 😀 Didn’t happen until this time 😀

Anyway, it is an important thing to realize that life is just one long, mostly annoying, rollercoaster. It’s hard to be on it but there is no way to escape. You can’t have it the way you imagine it, just how it is. And also, it’s important to realize that happiness and love are just choice away.

But when you’re really really down, it’s almost impossible to motivate yourself and believe that you will eventually be up again. Life just goes on so quickly. I never realized it until I become pregnant. Now I see what I will miss because of this strange miracle and also what I will gain. Life flows and the kid reminds me of it every day while my tiny belly becomes a ball. It seems like yesterday I went to Tesco to get tests because I felt it worked this time for sure. Now it’s 15 and half week and I’ll soon be in 5th month. That’s almost unbelievable 🙂

When I am down, I try to think about the kid. I hope he/she will be an indie kiddo like I used to be 🙂 I’d be really really proud 🙂